Brian Kovach

Class of 2021

Instagram: @brianskovach
Twitter: @brianskovach

It’s porn. “You should be ashamed of yourself.” I was thirteen, standing in a Kmart superstore, ripping out magazine pages of men. I could not stop thinking about their sculpted bodies and what I wanted to do with them. It was my pornography, my pleasure, the first time I fell in love with a man and I was scared to admit that to myself. Now I am twenty-six; I have completely shaped who I am around the ideas of sex and love. My work doesn’t speak directly about gay culture but about my experiences with it. I am turning a critical eye on the effect that pornography has had on my psyche. Beautiful, fit men are the pinnacle of my sexual desire. These images are reinforcing a societal body standard that I cannot compete with. Each collage, each image, shows an idealized man or a general idea of what a man should be. I encourage you, as the viewer, to surrender to your shame and let yourself feel embarrassed about sex, love, and porn.